We all started this way. Get destroyed, learn from mistakes, repeat. The "tryhards" you're up against are good because they've been stomped on so many times. Also most of the time, the top players go back to beginning weapons anyway. Obeya FBW? N-TEC? JG? Carbine? STAR even? All get used and abused by the higher ups. You get tired of hearing "get gud" but believe it or not, it's very true in this case. There is no easy, miraculous way of getting good than by putting in lots of time dedicated to playing to learn from experiences.