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So about 2 months ago I broke up with a guy I was with for 6 months but I spent a little over a year before that trying to get into his heart. I was so crazy about him, he was the best I've ever met but when I met him he had just finished coming out of a long relationship that ended really bad and seemed to have caused him to sign off love for a whole year. I spent all of that time though from start to finish doing whatever I could for him. I sacrificed sleep, money, tears, and much more for him. But to make a long story short the person I thought he was, was just that - my thoughts. I found this out towards our last month, when he showed me his true character. He never trusted me nor did he think my love for him was real, just these two things alone destroyed me. Because I had worked so hard to show him the opposite but it didn't matter, none of my sacrifices to him did. When I asked him why did he accept to being my BF he told me that it was just a test that I failed from various things but what sealed my "death" was when I blew up at him for disrespecting me during the start to our last month together. We broke up for a short bit before he came back like 4-5 days after asking me for a chance but I don't know why I agreed while knowing what I did because in the end it was just him trying to use me for something I had promised to do for him a few months before shit went south. I cursed my patootie off at him before leaving for good. At first I handled our split pretty well considering all that I had found out but I still had a few nights where I just couldn't sleep as he was stuck on my mind. That ended though recently when a friend told me that he's with someone new already. I spent so much wasted time and effort and then some nice lady pops up into his life and he falls for her in a near instant compared to my yearlong struggle. I hate saying this but it has teared me apart, I've completely changed from who I was in just 2 weeks and I hate it. Why am I feeling like this about someone I should hate, I've had trouble staying asleep I wake up in the middle of nights now from dreams about him being with someone else. I wake up with my chest tight and hurting while feeling a mix of sadness and anger. My days are filled with thoughts of him and doubts about myself, was i the problem? and the like.. I don't feel comfortable talking to my friends or family about this so what better place than a games forum's off topic to seek help amiright?
